I need to stop screwing things up

I need to open my eyes wider

I need to push myself

I need to stop sinking beneath everyone else

I need my motivation

I got called up to the school's mobile dental just now and I can't believe that I actually teared a little halfway through. I can't stop telling everyone how scared I was, guess my phobia hasn't ceased at all. I'm still afraid of the dental/dentist/the machines there/the sounds the machines make. I'll never allow my husband (if I ever get married) to be a dentist or anything along that line. I hate dentists to the core...........