I've been lazing around at home and eating so much for the past few days doing nothing productive, sleeping for more than 12hrs. I think I need a smack on my head.

I can't wait for school to resume again, despite knowing that the amount of work load is heavy enough to kill me almost instantly. I'm not gonna use the laptop so often anymore after this week. I need to manage my time wisely or else it will be impossible for me to get the amount of points that I'm aiming for - which seems impossible now looking at how lazy I am.

I've got to admit something, that is, I've already put volleyball aside - just like Vivien. I guess it doesn't matter to me anymore whether I'm in the main 6 or main 12. I don't even feel happy balling and the only reason why I'm attending trainings is because of my sister. I don't want to bring her any trouble or put her in a difficult position. I know I'm gonna get killed by my sister or anyone else after they see this but I want to speak my mind out. I think I shouldn't blog this out, people don't even understand how I feel because they can never put themselves in my shoe. Vivien's right, no point getting unhappy over volleyball. I shall learn to have fun while it last, >6 more months left! :)