I rmb telling myself not to have any regrets this year, never to realize it was actually tough to not have any. Yes, time flies, 1/3 of 2011 have passed and the biggest regret so far, was my tertiary education.

I wonder why the hell I'm doing in TP, getting into my current course - business studies, not studying hard enough for O's to get my ass into psychology, not listing down TPJC/SRJC as one of my choices, not having any confidence in myself, always doubting my capabilities, always feeling so inferior, being such a bitch to hate losing out...

I'm 17 now. I guess it's time for me to build bridges instead of walls to block everyone out. I'm so sick of communicating sometimes, with everyone or anyone about everything or even anything. I'm weird like this and I wish I was less problematic, less troubled on the inside.

I can't believe school's starting soon because I'm dreading everything - going to school, being in a whole new environment, making new friends, seeing unfamiliar faces, having lectures/tutorials, studying, having projects, vexing over what to wear everyday. I hate going through changes. I'm not ready for this.

...by now you must be thinking I'm one weird kid~

I'm gna push myself and get a GPA of abv 3.5 > get into local uni > study psychology/accounting. I'll get there eventually. I will.